Monday, September 29, 2008


i love green and i want to be able to wear some decent boots

If only

what if's? if only...
what a horrible mindset!

I need to learn how to retain focus on the important things in life.
i.e. seeing school as a place to further my education!!
I want to further my vocabulary...

It's all about location! Location changes your mindset easily, which means I need a new school and a new environment to fit my needs. As it can easily be deduced, I love making excuses for anything and everything.

 "Take time to realize
Oh-oh I'm on your side
didn't I, didn't I tell you."

Sunday, September 28, 2008

Goddammit, I'm Lonely

"But then, it's what I always wanted. 
My own apartment, a car, and plenty of women. 
And still, goddammit, I'm loney."


Right here, Right now

Yay I joined chictopia

Saturday, September 27, 2008

To Do List

i'd rather be doing a 'wish list' instead, my constant lack of concentration serves a huge detriment, I have what it takes, I just don't want to do it.

1. Skeleton Essay (Honor's English/AP US History)
2. Thesis statement for Scarlet Letter DBQ (Honor's English)
3. Impetigo Powerpoint/Paper (Anatomy/Physiology)
4. Finish reading Scarlet Letter (Honor's English)
5. Read Death of a Salesman (Honor's English)

Thursday, September 25, 2008

Would you rather?

I'm debating if I should just opt for this Nikon P6000 compact digital camera that produces exquisite DSLR type photos or pay the same amount for one of normal size with less megapixels!

I have people in my life, but I feel so outside.
I think I can be defined as an introvert pretending to be an extrovert.
Teenage angst.

Not to mention I feel stupid with the fact my classes aren't going as well as I thought they would be, it's probably the lack of attention and effort but it's hard for me to concentrate and too much effort just to comprehend! I want to be successful and use my intelligence to my utmost ability. That's so not happening right now.

Saturday, September 20, 2008


"And you, maybe you'll remember me
What I gave is yours to keep"

Wednesday, September 17, 2008


I feel like though with so many great people in my life, I'm still on my own here, always alone. I've semi-grown up with several sides to me. Like a dual personality if I say so myself. I'm sure others feel the way I do but I hate this lonely, depressing feeling. It seems like everyone around me is just passing by me with everything by their side.

"If he ain't gonna love you
The way he should
Then let it go
If he ain't gonna treat you
The way he should
Then let it go"

Luella Bartley - Spring 2009

Sunday, September 14, 2008

Hope is deceitful

"There is nothing so well known as that 
we should not expect something for nothing 
- but we all do and call it Hope."

Friday, September 12, 2008

As long as I keep my distance...

"So don't go worrying about me 
It's not like I think about you constantly 
So maybe I do, but that shouldn't affect 
Your life anymore"