Wednesday, December 31, 2008

Happy New Year

I went to a local park today

To another year filled with hope, aspirations, tears, new acquaintances, life lessons, good-byes, strengthening of former bonds, growing up, failures, along with tons of laughter. Here's to next year, best wishes to all!

-Bill Vaughn

Sunday, December 28, 2008

Another Birthday

French Connection shirt, Old Navy tights, Bakers shoes

happy 17th birthday to me today:)

my outfit was gleefully inspired by Vanessa Hudgens

Saturday, December 27, 2008

Forever & Always

say hello to Snowball

Friday, December 26, 2008

The Jungle

"The manner in which they did this was something to be seen and never forgotten."

Monday, December 22, 2008

That was the old me I was living a lie

the cop got restless as he read me my rights 
he told me "im always envious of those that i jail 
if i got locked up nobody'd come to help me post bail"

Cheap Monday jacket, plain white tshirt, F21 DIY shorts, black tights, socks, Converse shoes

Knowing these sweet, short few days of winter break is going to end any possible moment makes it harder for me appreciate them. Monday was quite refreshing for once! Woke up late, as usual, chowed down on some delicious Burger King (yum!), got some presents ready for wrapping, and got a quick bite to eat with some friends. The quick bite happened to include miso soup and iced vanilla milk with boba. And last but not least, my long awaited DSLR safely arrived to my household at approximately 2:09 and is currently waiting for me unopened atop my baby grand piano in the other room. Yippeeeeee

Sunday, December 21, 2008

Thank you Karmaloop

They are currently having an insane sale of 50%! I was lucky to snag some Cheap Monday's for $24 (previously $48) and an Obey jacket last week when the site was on 40% for $52.80. (previously $88)

call me crazy

You're the kind of girl who can take down a man, and lift him back up again.
You are strong but you're needy, humble but you're greedy.
Based on your body language, your shoddy cursive I've been reading,
your style is quite selective, though your mind is rather reckless.
Well I guess it just suggests that this is just what happiness is

H&m headband, Banana Republic top

I wore this boring outfit today on this lazy morose Sunday. The malls look horrible right now! My mom granted me $20 to exchange a gift she received and I thoroughly believed $20 was not nearly enough to amount for the craziness I foresaw and had undergone to complete such a tedious errand!! Anyway, today marks 4 short days until Christmas and a week until my birthday! I'm expecting my big birthday/xmas present in the mail tomorrow, (Canon XS + much more kit), oh yes I'm excited! Besides looking forward to beautiful frilly materialistic goodies during my break, I am going to sort of put effort into trying to spend a little time with friends during my winter break. My teenage ways radiate myself as a bitchy, narcissistic whore, but trust me under my tough callous skin lies a kind, loving, appreciative girl (at least I hope to think there is one underneath my hard exterior.)



Friday, December 19, 2008

My life keeps inching along

Yes! Oh yes for winter break! Sleeping in, warm clothes, no responsibilities, clean cold air, I love winter in California, it's never tooooo cold! And I can't forget to add how I especially love turtlenecks, yumm:D My birthday is soooooon.

Say that something's gonna give,
and it's all giving out on you.

I'm currently absolutely loving great mellow acoustic tinged pop music. Great melodies and voices by Jason Mraz and Eric Hutchinson are achieving the simple task of bringing me up when I'm feeling low.

The candy passed around at school got me sick, I tend not to usually be in favor toward sweets. I blame it on the bland fact that anything edible in arm's distance reach of me, will end up in my stomach whether I like it or not.

Thursday, December 18, 2008

Me Myself and I

Met an acquaintance we were reintroduced
With more in common than we had in our youth
She told me, "You look the same." I said, "I'm now a new man"
She asked me, "How does that work?" "I started giving a damn."

She explained, "I'm always sure today's the day I will die.
I wanna look good if i get to look God in the eye."

Tuesday, December 16, 2008

Give Up

And i'm never sure what i'm living for, but it's always on my mind
Someone comes along always proves me wrong, think im gonna be fine
We get lost in the back of our minds got nothing to burn but time time time
Everybody's got the love but they keep it inside

(car problems)

Friday, December 12, 2008


Well it's all so overrated
In not saying how you feel
So you end up watching chances fade
And wondering what's real

One of the greatest traits of a Goat is his/her consistency. Whatever they start doing, they will almost always make sure to finish it. This makes Capricorn individuals very reliable and responsible. Capricorns are also famous for practicality which usually allows them to come up with creative ways of doing same things in a different, but better way. Capricorns tend to be quite serious about whatever they decide to do, and they tend to focus a lot of attention on that one subject. These people are usually independent and have a strong character. However with all these good qualities, Capricorns still have a downside to their character. Their biggest flaw is inability to relax and let go off small things, since most of the time they are quite serious. Their excessive love for stability and consistency makes them scared of taking even small risks, and that is why they usually tend to be quite conservative and only walk the path that they know well, without diverging from it. Stubbornness is another bad point for this sign.

Monday, December 8, 2008

Lazyin' around

You'll always be a part of me
I'm a part of you indefinitely

My deep lethargy will be my ultimate prevention in becoming a self-sufficient human being. Actually looks like I have already reached that point. I can't seem to break myself out of habit no matter how much I hate it, nor make any "simple" rebellious moves. I AM SO BORING!!!!!! Yet, I can't make the effort to change. Well aren't I stuck in a rut, thank goodness the end of the year is slowly coming around, New Year's Resolutions should help and persuade me to get off my lazy ass, except everyone knows how easily resolutions are quickly disregarded. I'm stuck.

Sunday, December 7, 2008

day & night

Day n nite. I toss and turn, I keep stressin’ my mind, mind.
I look for peace, but see I don’t attain.
What I need for keeps this silly game we play, play.
Now look at this.
Madness the magnet keeps attracting me, me.
I try to run, but see I’m not that fast.
I think the first but surely finish last, last

I absolutely love December, but it does come with about a handful of downsides as well (of course) The lavishing gift giving and gift receiving can easily be described as therapeutic if I must say so myself. Yet, it's such a mission for me to make appear out of practically nowhere.

Sunday, November 30, 2008

Wednesday, November 26, 2008

LA Car Show

Top from Macy's, Tights Old Navy, Cashmere Socks Nordstrom, Boots Steve Madden

What I wore last Saturday, looking for potential future cars at the LA Car Show. Woo Hoo! I don't see how cars can seem so appealing to some people, yet again people are unable to see fashion as something appealing!

Sunday, November 23, 2008

How could you be so heartless?

Ayo I know there’s some things that you ain’t told me
Ayo I did some things but that’s the old me
And now you wanna get me back and you gonna show me
So you walk around like you don’t know me
You got a new friend, but I got homies
But in the end, still so lonely

In the night, I hear them talk, the coldest story ever told
Somewhere far along this road, he lost his soul
To a woman so heartless
How could you be so heartless?
Oh.. How could you be so heartless?

Friday, November 21, 2008


I wonder what makes me so unapproachable. It may be the loud, obnoxious, demeanor I proudly radiate to strangers. Or the simple fact I seem to portray myself as an antisocial, know-it-all bitch. I'm lonely sometimes, but it's not anyone's fault but mine. Other than that I feel myself to be very incompetent, not making good enough grades, not being socially adapted enough to my environment, and on top of all of that I don't know what I'm shaping my life into! Oh my woes, heartbreaking.

I've had this weird infatuation/admiration for Vanessa Hudgens for the past few years. Like to the point I'm checking websites several times a day just to find new pictures of her for me to oogle at, yum. Honestly, she may not may be nowhere near perfect but there's something about her, is it the hair, her clothes, her smile, her personality, her face?? Not to mention I love her style. She is beautiful (with clothes on, I must admit.) 

Wednesday, November 19, 2008

I need a miracle

I guess this is what I get
For wishful thinking

Sunday, November 16, 2008

Running in Circles

Questions of science, science and progress, 
Do not speak as loud as my heart.
Tell me you love me, come back and haunt me
Oh on I rush to the start.

Tshirt Volcom, black shorts, Madden Girl boots, Louis Vuitton bag

Thursday, November 13, 2008

forever & always

..then you feel so low you can't feel nothing at all, and you flashback to when he said, Forever and Always.

Don't Forget

And at last
All the pictures have been burned
And all the past
Is just a lesson that we've learned
I won't forget it
Please don't forget
About us

But somewhere we went wrong
Our love is like a song
But you won't sing along
You've forgotten
About us

Tuesday, November 11, 2008

Love Bug

Now I'm speechless, over the edge, I'm just breathless, I never thought that I'd catch this love bug again 
Hopeless, head over heels, in the moment, I'd never thought that I'd get hit by this love bug again 

Day off from school. Focused on my eyesight and slacking, staring off in the distance and aimlessly lurking webpages for well over 6 hours is how I waste my 'precious' time. Check out my new frames, I guess they're meant for men, I don't know if I should be flattered or embarrassed.

Monday, November 10, 2008

Look around

Look around, I'm the one, your only
Look around it still kills me

Saturday, November 8, 2008

You and I

Was it you who spoke the words that things would happen but not to me
Oh things are gonna happen naturally
Oh taking your advice I'm looking on the bright side 
And balancing the whole thing
But often times those words get tangled up in lines
And the bright lights turn to night
Until the dawn it brings
Another day to sing about the magic that was you and me

Sunday, November 2, 2008

day of the dead

American Apparel tank, Betsey Johnson tights

Sunday, October 26, 2008

Imitation is suicide

Sometimes I wish I didn't put myself on such a predictable schedule. I wonder if I didn't take everything with such negativity, like a pissed off old lady, and more like the ignorant teenager I realistically am I'd fill this missing void I currently feel that I have. Would I be happier taking everything with a carefree attitude and accepting criticisms as nothing more than a grain of salt? I must admit, all-nighters, sneaking out, lying, cheating, stealing, acting like a jerk seems so appealing. Might as well do it now, while adults expect that sort of behavior out of. Underage drinking, smoking, sex, and drugs. I'm all talk of course, nothing crazy for me, I have to continue my mission of hating high school and my peers. HOW BORING. I expected much more out of my life than this crap.

Sunday, October 19, 2008

Kanye West

Awesome, the Christian in Christian Dior
Damn they don't make 'em like this anymore
I ask, cause I'm not sure
Do anybody make real shit anymore? 

Bow in the presence of greatness
Cause right now thou has forsaken us
You should be honored by my lateness
That I would even show up to this fake shit

AA Frenzy

Take your hesitance, and your self defense,
leave them behind, it's only life.
Don't be so afraid of facing every day, 
just take your time, it's only life.
I'll be your stepping stone, don't be so alone, 
just hold on tight,it's only life.

let's go on a living' spree

weekends are never long enough, my body needs a lot of rest and relaxation, though I am getting still is not enough!! I just do not believe a 24 hr day is currently sufficient enough for me (to some aspect) bah

Sunday, October 12, 2008

I'm the only one who will believe me

"And he can't understand
How everyone goes on breathing when true love ends."

I was the ship who was too proud to ever sink

My image is slipping 
but your memory is gripping it 
this is my breath in your lungs 

last thursday's outfit

Tuesday, October 7, 2008

Your faith was strong but you needed proof

I'm lacking in the opportunity department, I want opportununities, I am worth much more than I am radiating physically right now. I need to stop sulking and procrastinating, I have 2 important tests tomorrow, yet I can't get myself to study.

Other than costly shipping and handling, when it comes to online shopping, I hate waiting for it to arrive. I incorrectly put the wrong billing address for my purchases at AA and here I am suffering having to wait even longer for it!!! Ugh

"Well maybe there is a God above
But all I've ever learned from love
Was how to shoot somebody who outdrew you
And it's not a cry that you hear at night
It's not somebody who's seen the light
It's a cold and it's a broken Hallelujah"

Monday, October 6, 2008

I don't wanna lose you

Closer to your eyes, get your attention
before you pass me by